I was hoping my next journal was something bright and joyful to talk about, but sadly its not. You may be wondering what the "Out of Order", means. Well, i was diagnosed around two weeks ago with something, don't know how is it called in english, but in spanish its "Tendinitis Severa", meaning i can't grab something for a very long time, or with too much strength, or even mve my fingers, because my whole hand starts to hurt like hell. Imagine this feeling as if your hand was burning from the inside, together with an extremelly painful sensation.
I'm in somewhat in a treatment right now, and if things dont't get better, i need an operation, and my father is exactly the same as Taiga's father from Toradora anime (that is the best example i can put), meaning he is not a good father, thus, i have to start to think in paying that myself. That's the reason of why i was so depressed lately, but i'm quite fine now.
Yes i know: out of one hole an into another, just like Luis Sera says. I can't draw, or play guitar without my hand hurting like hell; and with no drawings, there's no work or money. Thus i feel kind of impotent, because of all of the ideas i have in my head and want to have them done, but cannot do them I'm trying to have a positive attitude towards this, since i 've seen artists paint and draw with their feet and mouth, and they even do it better than us, so this is not the end of the world: i'm just incredibly frustrated with this shit.
Not to mention that because of this, i have to delay commissions once more, sorry. I was really excited to start to work on new pictures for you deviant clients....but again, i'll have to wait a little longer First the crash and now this, i know "Man you are quite an unlucky bastard!". But anyhow, let's have a positive attitude towards this, and hope i can start drawing again. I still have to make my costume for the cosplay event on the 15th.
ANYWAY, thank you all for your incredible support, thanks for all your comments and notes, i wish i could answer everyone of them, but they are just soo tooooo many. I just want you to know that every comment, favourite and note makes me incredibly happy, to see that people like my work that much. Thanks to all watchers!!!
SamuelLeumas: I wanted to answer a looong time ago, sorry that too much time has passed. Thanks for the Premium membership you gave me last year, i really enjoyed all of the premium features here in deviantart, believe me, i really appreciate what you did, what a great person. I am deeply grateful with you for this
Patience people, i survived a cab crashing my body, i can surpass this, just need a little time.
Cheers! Hope everything is al right with all of you and thanks again!!
Jay Phenrix - Twilit-arawen